yeeeeeesh this blog is like some weird relic. i feel like i just come here to romanticize the past lol. maybe cliche but i feel like … i just woke up? or maybe thats memories fading. but i feel like im… starting a lot more things than i thought i would be at 24. when i was 16 i thought i was me. in a lot of ways, my life at 16, 17, 18… was a lot more vivid than it is now. but im not sure i was really a person yet. theres core stuff thats the same, sure, but like… i look back and i just feel… like i cant or maybe just wont empathize with myself from back then. its like i know her intimately, better than i could know anyone else, but i dont… really understand. i dont FEEL the things i felt, i couldnt really describe them accurately and i definitely couldnt imagine feeling them again. but now? i feel more myself, i think. i dunno, it’s late. and i never come here haha.
